Ut oh.
Another word I must learn. I must understand how to apply it to my world and be ok with it.
I'm not talking about the negative side of Pride but the joyous side.
I'm proud of the Kid. She is an awesome young chick. I think I give more credit to HER than to myself even though I'm her mother. No matter what you teach a kid, there's a point where they have to chose to do the right thing and follow the path you've set before them.
This week there was this article in Indy.com. It was very cool to talk with Neal about community involvement and my take on it. We talked ALOT so it was interesting to see what he pulled from the convo. I think for me, it was just about ME so what am I being proud of per se. It wasn't about CWUW, my other community involvements, or even W2W. Just me. :/
A friend said to me, "I'm so proud of you". My response, "why?" LOL. I guess in my twisted head I'm thinking, you know me and there's nothing new revealed, what are you proud of NOW? LOL. I suck. (gigglin') I GET IT but I don't get it at the same time. Its like some twisted humility that's really unnecessary. "Humility before Honor" was my motto, mantra, my lifes slogan. You must always be aware of who you are in relationship to God, his people, creation, etc. The pawn can still take out the King so chill on being prideful.
I'm just confusing the two ways of being prideful. I said I get it! I need to work on false humility too. That's annoying.
The article, it was cool. It was cool that someone thought I was a person that embodied HOPE. Of all things, HOPE. HOW INSANE!! The one thing I had to battle with for personal reasons just a few years back, here it is again. Too funny.
Once again, I've over analyzed the simpliest of things but this is what keeps me sane and on track.
I'm so uninterested in being known for doing anything. I just wanna do work. I'd rather talk about CWUW and women's health. I'd rather talk about HIV prevention for women. I'd rather talking about community activism and service. I'd rather NOT talk about Rhonda L.
So here we go. The article.
the journey continues. I can't wait to look back on this moment five years from now.
I'm sure so much will change. I'm ready for it.
Another word I must learn. I must understand how to apply it to my world and be ok with it.
I'm not talking about the negative side of Pride but the joyous side.
I'm proud of the Kid. She is an awesome young chick. I think I give more credit to HER than to myself even though I'm her mother. No matter what you teach a kid, there's a point where they have to chose to do the right thing and follow the path you've set before them.
This week there was this article in Indy.com. It was very cool to talk with Neal about community involvement and my take on it. We talked ALOT so it was interesting to see what he pulled from the convo. I think for me, it was just about ME so what am I being proud of per se. It wasn't about CWUW, my other community involvements, or even W2W. Just me. :/
A friend said to me, "I'm so proud of you". My response, "why?" LOL. I guess in my twisted head I'm thinking, you know me and there's nothing new revealed, what are you proud of NOW? LOL. I suck. (gigglin') I GET IT but I don't get it at the same time. Its like some twisted humility that's really unnecessary. "Humility before Honor" was my motto, mantra, my lifes slogan. You must always be aware of who you are in relationship to God, his people, creation, etc. The pawn can still take out the King so chill on being prideful.
I'm just confusing the two ways of being prideful. I said I get it! I need to work on false humility too. That's annoying.
The article, it was cool. It was cool that someone thought I was a person that embodied HOPE. Of all things, HOPE. HOW INSANE!! The one thing I had to battle with for personal reasons just a few years back, here it is again. Too funny.
Once again, I've over analyzed the simpliest of things but this is what keeps me sane and on track.
I'm so uninterested in being known for doing anything. I just wanna do work. I'd rather talk about CWUW and women's health. I'd rather talk about HIV prevention for women. I'd rather talking about community activism and service. I'd rather NOT talk about Rhonda L.
So here we go. The article.
the journey continues. I can't wait to look back on this moment five years from now.
I'm sure so much will change. I'm ready for it.
Comments