Wednesday, May 27, 2009

From my "lil brother" Sah

Matthew Sah Jenifer just realized: in a world where most people abandon their dreams mid-storm- the further i follow my heart, the less advice people'll be able give in that dept (because they never went that far)*t this is scary... ::fastens hood/presses on thru desert::

Monday, May 25, 2009

I have been to the deepest depths of the Valley. I have fought through the darkest battles and yet I stand before you complete, whole, and beautiful. With the strength and wisdom of the Divine, I move forward with no fear in me.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

I was your Angel

Its always so hard when you see something in someone
and they disappoint
or maybe the expectation placed on them and the situation was misjudged
so who is to blame?

Don't Know.

Really no time for deep reflection. Well some reflection......

No time for reactionary moves

We are given opportunities to embrace a moment, a person. Its our responsibility to recognize the opportunity in front of us. Time to grow up.

Opportunities are for a moment many times. We are given chances to change. We are given chances to grown. It hurt when you've given someone the opportunity to go for the ride, and they say, "no", maybe not verbally but by deed or action. Its hurtful that they can't be honest, responsible, or faithful enough to know how to handle a "no thank you".

Am I disappointed? Yes. I've opened the door that was asked to be opened. You knocked repeatedly. "Please let me in. Please let me connect. Please let me be your friend." I said Ok.

Excuses become bullshit after awhile.

Chaos never is an excuse for disrespect and selfishness.

I've learned from my chaotic time that you are still accountable to others even when you're world is upside down. This is why it builds your character. You have to pull from inside what you really believe. What is your faith? What do you believe? Who do you believe?

I giggle nowadays at those who are now "enlightened" and criticize that I still walk hand in hand with Jesus. They are confused by my knowedge of other beliefs, the metaphyiscal, etc and yet I still chose to be a Christian. You don't get it. My strength comes from my beliefs. I've seen that I am strong as a mountain in the middle of the biggest earthquake. And I'm here to serve you....the "enlighten" ones.

My advice to anyone going to a trial is you must remember your faith. You must be centered in your beliefs. You must know that you are still responsible for your world, the people around you. You can't take advantage of someones compassion because of your situation. You can't be fearful of anything. Apologize. "Man Up" to situations. Allow God to provide you with comfort. He will send you your angels BUT will take them away if you abuse them.

This blog is me venting, me teaching, and me hoping that I can help anyone move through the storm gracefully.

Know that everyone can't go for the ride.

Some people don't go BY choice. Their loss.

Friday, May 8, 2009

Charlotte: A Mother

This is a time when we all examine motherhood.

I don't know if I'm the same type of mother as Charlotte. She cooked daily for us. She washed clothes AND ironed our clothes. Do I do that for the Kid - uh no. Syd started doing her own laundry around 8 or 9 years old.

What did Charlotte teach me about being a Mother?:
  • Honor being a Mother.
  • Love is the greatest gift you can provide ANYONE.
  • You are always a mother. There is no cut off date.
  • You can mother others
  • Be giving
  • Enjoy life
  • Impart wisdom
  • Service to others is a gift. You are BLESSED in your giving.
  • Be yourself
  • Give hugs and kisses
  • All your child to be his/her authentic self

Be the best Mother you can be.

Honor Motherhood.

CWUW Life Jam: Healing through Music, Art, and Friendship

Ramblings of the Soul

Fire and Ice
cool and Hot
my spirit
is Peace
of the study
of Wisdom
my eyes
a goddess
in the Kingdom
of the One

lay my hands
upon your soul
and you rise
Fire and Ice
Yin and Yang
Feminine and Male
Balance of Peace
I AM lives in me
Power is gifted
I am humble

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

The Sun

Weary in my bones
I still rise daily
Twin to the sun
I rise and fall
purposed in my soul
and sometimes hidden
talked about
as a godly
One day
I will embrace the masters
who has chosen
me for this great work
I will love his creation
and be moved by the
compassion of my King
I will rise
and I shall fall