I've always been very transparent with where I am in life whether it be good or bad. At times, this transparency brings about comments that have some level of pity or some who what to save me from me. I'm free. This blog is freedom. I share to connect with others going through similar feelings and who are too afraid to open up. There's freedom behind every word even if my words scream of despair, fear, or confusion. I'm able to speak those fears openly because I'm seeking truth for myself. I'm seeking the answer. I'm seeking healing. I know those things won't ever come with silence. My 20lbs blog wasn't about sadness but reflection of a moment and a how I need to address me and my NOW. Clevawords....is my truth, my honesty, my freedom.