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GOLD AURA COLOR : The color of enlightenment and divine protection. When seen within the aura, it says that the person is being guided by their highest good. It is divine guidance. Protection, wisdom, inner knowledge, spiritual mind, intuitive thinker. Today was a beautiful day! I was able share me with some positive people who are really shaping the world for the better. God is awesome. He is moving so and I love him so much. Daily he is showing me that he is with me. Today, I was able to expand my spirit and connect with him in an interesting way. Even as a devout Christian, I do believe that we are to expand our thinking. Our belief is internal and God speaks to you deep in your spirit. We are connected to all and everything. So sat and allowed a friend to do a Reiki session with me. I know some Christian folks are like....oh noooooooooo but it was interesting how INSTANTLY God was speaking to me. As she spoke, HE spoke. It was instant prayers falling upon me in the Name o...

God. Once again, I need a moment to show that I love Him. At every turn, God has shown me that he is with me. All he's ever asked of me is obedience. I still struggle with patience but I've learned that I will overcome that as well. We all carry a certain level of dogma even the most open minded person. I'll continue being a Christian until the day I leave this earth because this is where I've found peace and love. I believe that Jesus is the Way to peace. Even though I call him Yeshua, Jesus still works ;). I'm amazed that God knows my strength and has faith in ME. I've carried a load and never turned away from loving him and praising him. I've cried lone. I've prayed quietly. I'm still flawed. I'm slightly neurotic, mistrusting and can be cold hearted about somethings but I'm working on getting better. God knows that I am. He's placed in my heart the gift of service and love for the forgotten. This is where I always want t...

Looked in the mirror today I saw a vision I had not seen before powerful she was. black skinned and curvaceous hips lips to be kissed by one who holds the key Looked in the mirror and never to again will I compare what I saw with anything else again what beauty comes from the heart of the reflection I've seen working on it! BBL... ;)

Mystical words linger as the smells of cheap perfumes spells fall upon the heart twisting fate confusion is the long way home.

I'm going to get back to blogging regularly. I'm gonna continue talk from the heart, vent when I wanna, and be vulnerable as I want. This is the place where I can do that and I really and unmoved about who reads it. Getting back to clevawords being my spot. I'll get back to writing some poetry (if thats what it is). I'll get back to dealing with some community issues. I'll get back to dealing with me. I'mma shout out myself. I'mma criticize myself. I'mma respond to the private messages I receive in all appreciation. I'm do Rhon 100%. This next week is gonna be about me checking myself. I need to be checked on a couple of things where I believe I need some improvement. I'm blessed that do receive some revelation about where I need check ME. I will. Let's Go! Welcome back to ClevaWords! ;)

In all of my rhetoric, maybe I dont really know my own worth. Maybe I'm trying to convince myself that I'm as fly as I say but action speak volumes anyday. I don't treat myself like a Queen. I am tired of manipulative people taken advantage. The trick is to get smart and not bitter. I don't want that but this has to change. Rhon, take the hint and roll...bounce on. There are people who are users and flat out assholes. Keep them away. Man, I see ya'll coming at me. I gotta be wise enough next time to keep the bullshit at bay. No more bullshittin'.

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I'm absolutely, 100% tired of people thinking I'm stupid. I'm absolutely, 100% tired of ALLOWING people to think I'm stupid. I'm responsible for allowing any kind of treatment to come my way. I'm responsible for letting people think they are getting way stuff. I am responsible for who I identify as "friend" and "foe". I've hit my wall. I'm done with the b.s. DONE. Folks get no shine from me unless they've earned it.

I love ya'll. You have given me so much entertainment in the past few days, its so funny. Just the conversations about relationships, ME, and other things has really renewed some things in me. No, I haven't found anyone that has caught my eye but I'm renewed in my belief there are good men out there looking for good women. So far, no match for me but I'm assured its coming. I really actually learning for the first time what makes me attractive to me beyond any phased attributes. That's cool. Refreshing. Thanks to all of my brothas. :)

I'm so glad I'm a believer. I'm glad that I listen to the VOICE of God and pay attention. I was thinking that someone had good intentions and immediately, God let me know, its a farce. They are spying, being nosy. dang! It really saved me from foolishness. I'm just glad my spirit is open to receive it all. I'm very thankful. I love ya!

Was talking with a person about her relationship and I was like...oh brother. You know when you are just polar opposite of someone. We were talking about being on your grind and making things happen. Her man was on his Grind and she was very supportive but seemed lost in it, sorta. Of course, I was hyped about the stuff the dude was doing. I like people moving towards their dreams fearlessly. I got the impression that she really just wanted to have a "regular" relationship as she described it. She wasn't as interested in being a part of a "power couple" but did love and appreciate the boyfriends focused. I'm thinkin'..........wow. I guess I never thought about someone being interested in being a part of a "power couple" so to speak. She was just content with working, coming home, etc, etc. She did enjoy the fact that his drive kept them out and about. I was wondering if they would make it down the line. I was wondering if at some ...

I had lunch with a former employer who I hadn't seen in a long time. I wanted to check in with him and he with me and just chit chat. I asked him about CWUW and if I'm doing anything wrong. I get very anxious about if I'm on the right track and my need for professional mentoring at the ED level. He asked me a few questions about our organizational structure and said, "WOW, that's so impressive Rhonda!" I was like...REALLY? It was the confirmation I needed.

Wrestling with the emotions of streaming thoughts as the sea moans with displeasure of the winds the twisted mindset moves away from sweet words dripping from lying lips Walking towards light as I awaken from a slumber of loneliness confused by my solitude something embraced as needed but quiet moments reminders of emptiness Can I arise beautiful? Moving forth in perfection knowing my past is no more than a stepping stones to strength let me be no more confused sound

I completely believe in being honest almost to a fault. No matter the friendship or relationship if you can't be authentically yourself, the friendship/relationship isn't real. Agreeing with bull so that you seem to be on the same page just makes for a bullshit/false situation. For you to be my friend, we don't have to agree or like the same things. For you to be my lover, we don't have to agree or like the same things (all the time). I've seen friendships that are like "You're so right. You're so great. You're so wonderful" and I'm thinking...bullshit. My sisterfriends take me to the carpet. If they disagree, they disagree. In relationships, I'm not going to agree with bs just because we're together and I want to give the appearance that we are so PERFECT together. I think I just can't stand BS and it pisses me off. Love doesn't mean everything is always Perfect and even agreeable. You have to be able to check the p...

I think I will officially get back on the market this summer. Ready for a partner in crime. So - Here I am. :) Spiritual, Driven, Goofy, Sexy Chica!!!

3am mindset pours out wondrous possibilities exploration of the deepest wishes imagination is invoking secret dreams chimera things never to manifest 3am mindset takes me to open my eyes the little girl playing with Mary the friend who I could only see but was real because she was me 3am mindset wiles, seduction power trippin' intoxicated on my own pimp game remember when you were THAT chick? no more 3am calls me mindset unsure each night of what is next can I be that Chick invokin' imagination love lust la la la la

Today - I told my boss that the way they run the org makes me want to SCREAM!! I vented. I can't take the nonsense anymore but my battle has been - "Rhonda, just be grateful you have a job and shut it!" But do I need to lose my integrity, get stepped on because there is a recession? God never said to be foolish. I keep being told, "You're there for a reason." WHATEVER!! Sometimes folks can be TOO spiritual (if that's possible). I'm miserable and I shouldn't be. Its a mission that I support. I still enjoying working in HIV/STD prevention but damn. I don't enjoy this. I'm almost jealous of their building even. I keep thinking....CWUW could REALLY use this space wisely. I know I shouldn't covet anything but the building is SWEET. Nonetheless, I have to now grind for a new gig. I'll find something. Just need to do it soon, before the kid graduates. I'm not really tired as in weary but I'm physically tired mos...

Hoping time does its job and allow my heart to resolve the mess its created I cared more than I've ever said but tried to show I allowed my heart fight principle to the death sacrificing integrity for thrill, compliments, and passion I feel the loss even though it was a fantasy miss you.

Real Thang (Soulflip Remix) - Erykah Badu

Passionately I strive to capture the vision in my heart I toil over how and why and when this labor is long tiresome some days, I do feel I seek the seed planted inside of me I've come to terms that I will walk this path alone I will find strength within myself to persevere hard days do The thing I seek.... come but I know that I am strong enough to carry the weight I seek this out more than anything Self motivation is all I have but there are times when I need to rest when I just want to lay my head down on supportive shoulders and just breathe My dream will manifest The plan will come forth The birth is near written 6/8/08 - the birth has come