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I have truly gotten away from my blog. I've stopped it completely. I allowed time to get a way from me but I believe I need to get back to it.  My journey, like most journeys, has moved on like a storyline from a Charles Dickens book or maybe some Edgar Allan Poe poem. I'm not quite sure just yet.  My growth is steady. My stubbornness has continued.  Acceptance is key to facing what is real and to walk in freedom.  I can't be free without an examination of self. I can't be free if I don't recognize the messes.  I can't be free if I don't admit to flaws.  I'm moving and living but I've still not arrived at the place of peace I know I need to be. Gratitude will get me there.  The Blessings of God and his/her Universe are around me and I must recognize it all, in whatever shape or size.  I am Free and even more so, I am Blessed.  Gratitude must live in my heart at all times.  So, will I return to my blog? Yes.  I think its neces...

"When we are tired, defeated, and dispirited, it is not necessary to languish in this condition. Turn the faculty of your attention to some nobler dream or aspiration within you. Bestow upon this the full measure of available energy, and experience rest and refreshment. We are not tired because we serve the laws of the universe; rather we are exhausted because we try to live well without fully maturing the soul. We all have many things to attend to, but let us never be so busy that we neglect the integration of the inner life." - Manly P. Hall

http://clevagratitude.tumblr.com/ This will be my online gratitude journal.  Everyday I will post what I'm most grateful for in my life.

a list: my health my chamomile tea and lemons, lemons, lemons sanity the sunshine my daughter prosperity fulfilling career a dog the potential for love God's love for me and my family Art all around me  Gratitude.    

I'm on my path to the land of freedom. I plan on living there until I transcend so today I truly begin my journey by releasing everything I feel about my body. Belly. Even after gaining 72lbs while pregnant with my daughter 22 years ago, I had a flat stomach and began to get a tattoo of the sun. Being a work in progress, I didn't think about what the future would hold for myself and my body. Stretch marks meant nothing to me. I'm a mother. This is what happens to a woman's body. My belly never gave me pause.  It wasn't an area that I concerned myself with on any level. As my bulimia worsened so did my vision, the way I viewed my body.  I saw every stretch mark. I saw every mole. And after my surgery to have fibroids removed, I developed a little pouch similar to what women have after  a c-section.   This was no longer my body.  It was foreign to me.  I disconnected with my body and to whatever it meant to be Rhonda.  I had been so measure...

Out of the night that covers me, Black as the Pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds, and shall find, me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll. I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul. William Ernest Henley

I'm doing the Chopra Center's 21-day meditation challenge and today was the first day.  The centering thought for the first day: "I am ready to view my life through the eyes of love." What a liberating start! First, I need to love Rhonda. I need to love my eyes, my lips, my thighs, my ass, my feet, my laughter, my heart, and my way.  I need to recognize that love is all around me daily. The scales of fear, hurt, anger, and sadness have prevented me from seeing this love. Everyone needs to filter through the love that surrounds me. The last thing that came to mind is that God is love and that He/She loves me wholeheartedly.  I accept that love and all that it means. I will continue to meditated on this all throughout the day.  

Sometimes your soul needs a confirming hand.  It needs to agree with the universe and feel as if it has reach the right vibration to produce, to love, and to experience life as it should be lived.  Today, my soul was comforted by having multiple conversations with friends, co-workers, and even myself confirming many of the things I have been feeling. I'm grateful to God for assisting me today with some struggles and ending the confusion for many issues.  To receive any form of confirmation, you must be willing to have your spirit available to change and be ready to accept.  I need to prepare for more confirming moments.  I'm ready. R.

I've never had to say that I don't have good female friends. I have the best.  They are diverse, loving, smart, caring, funny, and well Friendly. I'm grateful for each of them. I love them. I welcome new friendships as well.  I sincerely pray for each of my friends.  Thank you for loving me. I am grateful. R.

I've truly gotten away from blogging and I truly need to get back to it.  Its important for me to release all of the emotions, feelings, and changes going through my mind, body, and spirit.  Its important that I keep up with my gratitude journal.  I have to keep before me all the wonderful things before me from the simplest thing to the most wonderfully complex, I'm grateful. With all of the changes before me this year, one of the biggest has been with CWUW.  There has been some changes which at first threw me for a loop.  It made me question if I'm suppose to be doing this. Of course, I was devastated.  I love the concept of CWUW.  I love that God had blessed me with this vision.  I questioned if it was over.  Through some prayer, I realized that God wants me to take this time to restructure and renew CWUW and more importantly, me.  I met with a consultant who was to help me with board development.  In the midst of our conve...

Miss Moon's Musings I've really enjoy looking through this blog.  Love it!

Its been a long time since I've blogged here.  Its time I've returned but not just with negative things that have happened but with positive things.  I need to be more grateful for the things in my life which are working well. God has been good to me.  I need to count my blessings daily so I will start my gratitude journal today. Tired eyes with a Grateful Heart Let's begin. I'm grateful for my health. I could be in worse condition. I could have a diseased ridden body. I could be dying.  I'm not. I'm alive and well.  I'm a little chunky but its within my power to correct.  Health is a gift from God and I need to be thankful for it DAILY.  So today - thank you God for my health in body, mind, and spirit.  I'm blessed.

believe me.....u really don't know everything. that's for those coming here to be nosy.  seek and u will find....are u sure u want to find it? lastly, go away.

When I started working at the Damien Center, I wanted to lose about 25lbs and now that number has risen to about 50lbs.  The return of the scale has revealed that I've gain about 30lbs in the past year. I stopped working out and just worked, helped my daughter, and oh, did I say worked.  Each year I've promised myself time for me and I've yet to do it.  God has made a way. I have FREE training 3 times per week. I have an accountability partner in my daughter.  I want it more than ever.  I've been wearing these layers. We're taking them off finally with the biggest weight loss challenge I've every had to face since after having my daughter.  I was focused and this will take focus.  I have to come before work and even others. Its so early in this process.  Lost 2lbs. More to go.  I'm ready. again.

God protects fools and babies.....you know that saying. I'm convinced its so very true. I have to believe in Divine justice though.  God takes care of all situations in time.  I do have to remember that all things in the dark do come to the light especially if the truth has not been fully revealed.  I'm seeing that some things are still in the dark.  Light will come.  God has to protect the heart of the fool and of the foolish perpetrator.  Yeah....today...I don't have much of a forgiving, loving heart.  AT all.

I will never, ever, never, ever live in a box. again . If I can't be appreciated, celebrated, loved, and befriended with honestly and openly....with no conditions and controls.....then I can't be....for you. I'm a good friend.  I'm a good person. I deserve good things from good people who really want to celebrate whatever connection I have with them....outside the box. I'm free to be.

Detoxing is actually letting go of something you love but causes harm in some way. We can detox from so many things including people.  Its just like getting off any drug where you have to take it one day at a time.  I'm trying. I'm trying. I'm trying. Never been a 12 stepper.  I need more than sobriety. I need healing. I miss it....them....and I really do.