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- Oh hey... Ooh hey I’m trying to decide Which way to go I think I made a wrong turn back there somewhere Ooh hey I’m trying to decide Which way to go I think I made a wrong turn back there somewhere Didn’t cha know, didn’t cha know Tried to move but I lost my way Didn’t cha know, didn’t cha know Stopped to watch my emotions sway Didn’t cha know, didn’t cha know Knew the toll, but I would not pay Didn’t cha know, didn’t cha know Cause you never know where the cards may lay Time to save the world Where in the world is all the time So many things I still don’t know So many times I’ve changed my mind Guess I was born to make mistakes But I ain’t scared to take the weight So when I stumble off the path I know my heart will guide me back Ooh hey I’m trying to decide Which way to go I think I made a wrong turn back there somewhere Ooh hey I’m trying to decide Which way to go I think I made a wrong turn back there somewhere Didn’t cha know, didn’t cha know Tried to run but I lost my way Didn’...

Before I even begin, I'm not going to edit but just write. So has my fingers try to catch up with my brain, work with me. For the past 6 months, I can honestly say that I've some anxieties about well....me. Today it hit me, again, that the Valley is still in me. TRUST is my new battle I have to overcome and resolve. I think it finally sunk in this weekend with talking with CWUW members about trusting them. On the surface, I thought I was doing a good job with giving up ownership to others and really trying to give them a piece of "my baby". I really thought about it. I don't trust anyone to be in my corner 100% except my daughter. REAL TALK. I don't expect anyone to have my back. I still have a fear that if something happens to me the ONLY person I can call is the Kid and maybe my dad....maybe. This is so real that tears are falling as I type this but I have to say it so I can see it and feel it. When I lost my job and then my mother died, I went into surv...

I can never see the world the same. my eyes are open. and I've never found peace like this when my eyes were closed. I don't wait on a savior. The Savior has done the job. This is the tricky of the Church. "Wait on the Lawd!" Why? I need to pull down, dig deeper, and move forward. I need to read the words of the Sacred Text and then act on them. Yes, I'm speaking of the Christian Church because that's where I was raised but its so very interesting that my spiritual experiences are deemed "witchcraft" and evil. I've experienced possession. I've heard the voice of God....literally. I've felt the touch and kiss from my mother and I've experienced astral projection. These things are outside of the Christian faith and yet these are the very things that have brought me closer to God. I've been set free from thinking I have to wait and that God is just going to always miraculous provide everything without me doing my part. NO....

Truth Fearing the possibility that I could be the manifestation of truth Spiritually you called down from the heavens Asked the ancestors Prayed unto the Divine allow reality to be near me to be my reflection as clear as the Nile Let me be the one to touch Truth In your Power I stand before you you tremble afraid to let go of the past hurt anger death what do you choose how can you be at peace in a lost of love Truth has decided to hold your hand caress your face kiss your lips The dream is more than fantasy Truth is not going away So what will I do what will I say all that I want has been given the table has been set my cup runneth over and I turn away. Truth.