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The biggest thing I must do in 2010 is think more of myself. There are areas I still need to work on in regards to self-love and respect. I'm more than....THIS. 2010....let it begin (corny but whatever...ha)

"They Don't Care About Us" Skin head, dead head Everybody gone bad Situation, aggravation Everybody allegation In the suite, on the news Everybody dog food Bang bang, shot dead Everybody's gone mad All I wanna say is that They don't really care about us All I wanna say is that They don't really care about us Beat me, hate me You can never break me Will me, thrill me You can never kill me Jew me, sue me Everybody do me Kick me, kike me Don't you black or white me All I wanna say is that They don't really care about us All I wanna say is that They don't really care about us Tell me what has become of my life I have a wife and two children who love me I am the victim of police brutality, now I'm tired of bein' the victim of hate You're rapin' me of my pride Oh, for God's sake I look to heaven to fulfill its prophecy... Set me free Skin head, dead head Everybody gone bad trepidation, speculation Everybody allegation In the suite, on...

Today, I was asked if my heart had been broken recently. hmmmmm....no. My heart has been disappointed many, many times. That saddens my soul. I smile. I move on. I do what I know I need to do to fulfill my purpose. Its not enough. It will do. Has my heart been broken recently? No.

"Gender is in everything; everything has its Masculine and Feminine Principles; Gender manifests on all planes. "--The Kybalion. In all of Nature, there is balance which includes the aspect of gender. My insight doesn't actually speak directly to what the Kybalion means when it speaks of gender. I'm doing a little stretching..... I've gone long enough without that balance. I can feel me pulling the other side of me closer and closer. It is the HE. I know that HE is needed to balance my spirit and to move with me in this next phase. I seek that balance. I seek it in wisdom. I am Yin. He is Yang. I am the Moon. He is the Sun. We are One .

I'm cutting all coat tail riders. snip. snip.

America. The Great Experiment, you are clothed in perceived Blessing, yet arrogant and selfish. What murderous seeds you've sown and you blindly assume you shall never reap for the evil you sowed onto Natives, Africans, Irish, Japanese, the poor....God, Have CONTINUED mercy on this nation.

Strong as an oak, rooted and brave and yet my leaves are vulnerable...exposed... lifting up, pushing against the wind...trying to hang on... Some would say, this is where my beauty resides....the changing of my colors, the blossoms of springs morning glow... I remain the rooted oak....strong and lasting allowing my leaves to be as the be... They will come again, more beautiful, being strengthen from the internal love of rings of wisdom and divine creation... I am whole... twittering in my thoughts...

What is Ego? Definition please: e⋅go   / ˈi goʊ , ˈɛg oʊ / Show Spelled Pronunciation [ ee -goh , eg -oh ] 1. the “I” or self of any person; a person as thinking, feeling, and willing, and distinguishing itself from the selves of others and from objects of its thought. 2. Psychoanalysis . the part of the psychic apparatus that experiences and reacts to the outside world and thus mediates between the primitive drives of the id and the demands of the social and physical environment. 3. egotism; conceit; self-importance : Her ego becomes more unbearable each day. 4. self-esteem or self-image ; feelings: Your criticism wounded his ego. 5. ( often initial capital letter ) Philosophy . a. the enduring and conscious element that knows experience. b. Scholasticism . the complete person comprising both body and soul. tripping A [state of mind] brought on by experiencing a different state of consciousness- mostly through vast...

Music is so powerful. My spirit connects with every lyric and verse, the way a vocalist passionately spills from their soul each word and phrase. Today Cree Summer is the artist that is allowing me in, making me go deeper, and having me love more. Deliciously Down lyrics I need some sweet to soothe my inside I need some soft to lay down my pride I need some tears to rain down on me To melt my memory I need to slide deliciously down To where I hurt the least I need high prayers to breathe through I need to shine like I used to and I Know that I'm not supposed to be for nothing I need a breeze to carry me safe I need some peace to find my way I need a song to hold in my palm And feel the love that made me I need to slide deliciously down To where I hurt the least I need high prayers to breathe through and I Need to shine like I used to and I Know that I'm not supposed to be for nothing I need some love to open my heart I need a space to fall apart I need a star for every dream Do...

My strength is real, very valid. I'm a rock. Ok that's out of the way. I'm still human. I seem to do a lot of writing and venting about this. Just me proving that I have feelings and that I can be hurt. Some throw insanity my way knowing I can handle some of it but there's a time when your spirit needs comforting, a kind word, a hug. I think I'm now at the point of making a plea, raising my expectations. I'm moving into 2010 focused on Rhonda. I first need to give myself the proper attention and love. I can't give anything to anyone at this point. I'm not only fragile cargo...but precious.

The hardest thing for a giver is to have their gift rejected because it feels as if you're being rejected. Reality. No you're not but we sometimes see our gifts are an extension of our feelings and emotions towards that person or a symbol of who we are. When that gift is rejected, we feel it reflects on us. How did we learn about rejection? How did we learn to feel that when someone doesn't want to be in our lives that it someone how means we are less than..... I don't know. I have some rejection issues. Why? First, I'm human. Secondly, I'm black. Thirdly, I'm female. I'm conditioned this way. I've learned this behavior. Daily, I strive to move beyond it. [RE]jection Its full of disease, sadness, and emptiness. It can lead to depression and anxiety even. Learn to love you. Learn that what matters more is your opinion of yourself. Learn that its something that we all experience. [IN]jection Inject yourself with love...daily.