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lucidity (n.) 1. free from obscurity and easy to understand; the comprehensibility of clear expression lu·cid·i·ty (lo͞o-sĭdˈĭ-tē) noun Clarity, especially mental clarity. lucidity the quality, state, or art of clarity in thought and style. — lucidness , n . — lucid , adj.

My mirror is clear...buffed and shined I see me creating a situation with the seed of insecurity watering it be drawing to me anything that will cultivate that piece of me that desires love human touch planting nothing more than strife and heartache weeding weeds giving time and attention to nothingness but I'm still a Goddess able to turn around and manifest Power removing the weeds that do nothing but choke and take giving nothing to my life because its incapable of adding anything to your own I've expected too much I've received nothing but disappointments which opened a wound that was already cut and scarred Peace... QUEEN Goddess Black Woman blah blah blah Seeds of Insecurity pushing through the soiled soul harvesting heartbreak EYES wide Open I'll return to the E...

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I find it very interesting as you meet people how we sometimes make assumptions about their "wholeness" based on their job, their rhetoric, their passion, etc. We all are on a journey for completeness no matter the stage of knowledge, understanding, or wisdom. We can't assume a person has it all together just based on one or two things we're allowed to see. I find that some think I have it all together and I really laugh. Far from it. I'm still working through many issues. I'm still trying to find wholeness for me. I try my best to be open about my flawed ways so that people understand that its always a journey. We should always look within and make self correction. I'm more interested in the positive ways a person copes with hardships because I've been very unhealthy with coping and control. I'm looking to establish a new ritual to healing myself emotionally and calming my spirit. I'm seeking those things out from others who seem to hav...

My blog is just simply an outpouring of emotion. my moment to scream.cry.love.vent....and be. At first, I wanted this to be a deep, profound journey through my thoughts. Its become just a peek inward. I'm troubled. I'm calmed. I'm complex. I'm simple. I'm weird. I'm normal. I'm Rhonda. what is seen...is just me. I've walked a journey through ups and downs and i'm still here witnessing how I continue to move through this world at times eyes wide open and other days eyes wide shut. I'd love to talk about race and sexism, love and hate......men and men. its all in my spirit. As the spirit moves, so shall I. I'm seeking truth. I'm seeking to know me better. I'm seeking to be willing to let others take a piece of me. Hold my hand. Take my journey. Some call me Rhonda, others call me Cleva ....

skin my skin needs touch. screaming for a gentle tough. a rough one too. a kiss on the cheek. rub my back. hunger yearning for feeling emotion through finger tips. feels desperate. feels like an addiction. skin hunger an outpouring of love. expression of connection. satisfaction of the deepest desire.

My MOTHER used to tell me and my brother to go hard with anything we do. Sometimes its the oddest songs that make you remember those messages . I feel this. Mama said Knock you out.....

deep in the inner workings of the mind I'm there I'm watching for you to open up your spirit to me I'm waiting for you to realize that I've always been there wake up wake up king what up god and goddess the universe is here at your beckon call I am the almighty I'm in your dna I'm in your breath wake up I'm not a religion I'm not a religion I'm not a religion I'm waiting be masterfully in your creation look in your soul and hear me cry out wake up wake up I am is here I am is all I am that I am wake up wake up (I close my eyes and type what comes to me......)

invisible hiding behind wishes devilish dreams deferred deferred invisible pressing my heart against silence lust lust invisible tick tock revelation comes crying crying invisible a confused longing skin hunger invisible

When you need attention, applause, compliments...what do you do when that stops or doesn't come? Do you act up and act out? Do you reduce others to make you feel bigger, taller, better? Man in the Mirror. Go look in it. Go face it. If you're seeking stardom, you've failed. Celebrity is for suckers. Walk through your life understanding that your talents, giftings are NOT for you but for others. It is through you God works. You manifest it or you shut it off but your foolishness, selfishness. Baby I'm a Star. Open up your soul and heart to the possibilities that your hood will only know you. What then? Maybe your legacy is that you created beauty...here. Leave the star bs alone. Be more concerned with artistry and integrity. I don't care about your talents if you treat me unfairly and without concern; when you're all about is... who did not clap, scream, gave you the love when you thought you deserved it...., I can't be bothered. Who cares about your tale...

What is it that we need to reclaim ourselves and revive ourselves? Daily I'm working ridding myself of the conditioning that has my mind in turmoil. Even in my leadership and in my strength, I'm lost in who I am and who I need to be to move forward. The journey has begun. Once you have been allowed to see that there was/is a choice between the blue and red pill, its very hard to return. You have different eyes. I'm open. The Creator is with me. The Creator is pushing to see the lies the African people have been told and have accepted. I'm tired.